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Hate       Can't you tell that she tastes like poison?  The snakes in her hair are the reason for  my nightmares. Her eyes are vacuums,  
and they drain the life from me everytime  I'm near her. Her sympathy is a ghost  
long since crossed over into the light.  
 
       Why do you do this? Capture me in roses  with every one of your breaths? Perfection is  
an understatement, and your lips are crafted  from velveteen rabbits.   
       I'm growing tired of this.  When will I be Hate
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Whale       My thighs are twins and their names are  Fat and Ugly. The broken blood vessels that  kiss my arms are visiting more frequently these days,  
and the chestnut orbs inside my head  have no more water to offer my cheek bones.   
       I am a whale.  Even my massive amounts of blubber  
cannot insulate me from the pain their words bring.  
When will people realize? They hug me and pretend  that they care, but they don't know that  I can see straight through their facade.   
     & Whale
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You Were Always On My Mind            Interstate 95 can be quite lovely if you focus on the scenery instead of the expanse of asphalt in front of you. It’s a bittersweet drive, though. It’s always sad leaving Aunt Barb’s house – even more so now that Uncle Arnold is gone. I still half-way expected to see him sitting in his favourite chocolate brown leather chair, staring intently at the plasma screen. He’d always flash the warmest smile when he saw us walk onto the screened-in porch. No longer, though. No longer will I help him cook his signature smoked pork ribs, his honey ham, or hi You Were Always On My Mind
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QuestioningI couldn't help but notice  
that your andromeda eyes  
are more distant  
than they used to be.  
The ballerinas in your veins  don't pirouette as flawlessly as they did  before a second sun  appeared on your horizon.  
 
You confuse me:  
turning into a fox hunt  whenever my rhododendron arms  reach out for you.  
 
Haven't you realized  
that she tastes like bulimia?  Her mouth is one of thistles  
and ship traps, lies flowing  off of her tongue  like a virgin in a whore house.  
Jellyfish tentacles are her fingers,  but you've always b Questioning
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O' Christmas tree, o' Christmas tree.....

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 10, 2009, 9:37 PM
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Why've you been in stores since Octoberrrrrrrr? :sing:
lmfao. Just thought I'd throw that one out there.

Christmas is almost here! :la: You know what that means? Huh? Do ya, do ya, do ya??? COLD WEATHER HURRAY! :icontardbeatplz: As soon as the radio starts playing Christmas music, I'll be in heaven. :meow:
Christams also means lots of food, and that means serious temptations.:iconohnoesthrustplz: SO. I promised myself I wouldn't gain an ounce of weight back that I worked so hard to lose. I also promised myself that I would prove everyone wrong and lose at least ten pounds over the holidays, because nobody thinks I can do it. BUT I CAN SO SCREW YOU, NEGATIVE NANCYS. :icontatataplz:
On another note, I've been in a very good mood lately. I'm quite pleased with that fact. OH AND I LOST THREE MMORE POUNDS! :'D That's twelve pounds in one week. One week. Twelve pounds. Hell yes. :iconvictorydanceplz: I'm hoping to lose fifty pounds by January first. I think I can do it. :)

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I'm Kelly. I'm a girl. I want to be accepted for who I am - even if it's impossible for me to accept myself.

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  • Current Residence: Pluto - because it IS a planet.
  • Interests: The arts, anime, fan fictions.
  • Favourite movie: Lion King
  • Favourite band or musician: Adam Lambert
  • Favourite genre of music: techno core
  • Favourite artist: Nyssa O'Shanti
  • Favourite poet or writer: Kiya Ewan, Jayson Newport, Peter Dawes
  • Favourite photographer: Alex McKee
  • Favourite style of art: Digital
  • Operating System: Windows Vista? i think?
  • MP3 player of choice: PSP
  • Shell of choice: conch?
  • Wallpaper of choice: Rainbow
  • Skin of choice: The kind that covers my organs
  • Favourite game: Well, I guess I just lost the game.
  • Favourite gaming platform: Computer
  • Favourite cartoon character: Kovu.
  • Personal Quote: "Oh my god, I thought that was a plant! O_O;;"
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencil, pen, paper, teeth. ^^

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=assica 2 days 2 hours ago
thank you :love: !

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but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us...
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=Lord-Kevinz 4 days 19 hours ago
thank you for the fave

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~HoldingBackTears 4 days 18 hours ago
You're more than welcome. :]

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~Kiyayiya 6 days 13 hours ago
Thank you ever so much for the favourite!~
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<3<3<3

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~HoldingBackTears 6 days 7 hours ago
You're welcome! :'D

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--Emo happens--

"Just because I'm not sticking it in there doesn't mean I don't think its beautiful." - Adam Lambert

"My hair is blue-black with white on top. Like a ghetto skunk sundae." - Erik Whinters
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~Kiyayiya 6 days 3 hours ago
<3<3

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~ArcaneBolt Nov 7, 2009, 8:39:14 PM
Thanks for fav'ing my zebra :dummy:

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~HoldingBackTears Nov 7, 2009, 8:56:16 PM
You're more than welcome! It was SO cute. :3

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--Emo happens--

"Just because I'm not sticking it in there doesn't mean I don't think its beautiful." - Adam Lambert

"My hair is blue-black with white on top. Like a ghetto skunk sundae." - Erik Whinters
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=x3rap11 Oct 27, 2009, 4:24:24 PM
pluto isn't a planet :o
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